Purpose of The Wall

I think I finally started to realize the reason the existence of the Pink Floyd album “The Wall”.

At the darkest nights, when I hope that the next day will be better enough, to be productive, to learn something new, to do something cool, I don’t like to think that all hope is futile at that time.

Let’s begin with examples.

1. One of teachers treats us like schoolchildren. Maybe she is just frustrated…!
2. She also wants us to draw every bits of schematic in a 74 series digital IC, every unused and useless things in our laboratory notebook. Still I am thankful to her, that she allows us to get creative, letting us write our own stuff in the laboratory notebooks. Irony is some people think that to be more difficult than just copying it from others.
3. We are not allowed to spend our off time outside our college campus.
4. No interesting stuff, only boring recap and recap. Even in communication subjects, it is not interesting enough in the classroom. It is better at the library, with the books. That is the saddest thing of the century.
5. I spent most of my time writing stuff like laboratory notebooks. How can I perfect my engineering like this?

No wonder he wanted to build the wall around him, to isolate him from the rest.

An update…

It is hard to get update the blog these days. I have been busy with my stuff for a few days. A very good friend of mine once told me that a busy man finds time for everything. So I am trying to get regular again.

These days I am getting less productive. I am feel baked all the time. Maybe it is because I am getting less sleep or maybe it is because I am somewhat frustrated, due to the system I am in.

Updated something strange as this in facebook “I started trying to be a Geek among n00bs years ago. Now I walk alone… But I cannot go back, can I?”

One good thing though, one of my friends read my blog. I liked that, someone actually read my blog. Cool it was!

Winter is going away from Northern Hemisphere, and Hell will start to melt everything all over again.

Recently I am trying to get a control over my dreams, it sounds FUN, but haven’t managed it yet.

More to come soon, as I will be trying to get regular again….

And this is the most FUN thing I built in recent days.

Proposed T-Shirt Designs

Happy New Year

Six Days of Fun!

Winter Camp we call it. It is Adventure and Nature Study Camp, where we teach kinds camp  and adventure stuff and how to respect nature. Well, I am one of those Guides who teach kids these things, and I was once a Kid who went to Learn those stuff. During these six days, we had a lot of FUN! Let’s just point out some…

Cooked with Wood Fire in the Woods at Night. The kids helped a lot, we prepared Egg Curry.

Walked down the Forest in the Dark.

Ate hell loads of Good Stuff.

Taught the kids to respect and to have fun simultaneously.

Arrange a wrestling match which ended in disaster in Campfire. (Or Course it was a Mock)

Made a bi-headed animal in Campfire.

and many more…

While I was returning home alone in the morning, I was trying to pick up the threads that I left few days ago and it felt strange.

Happy New Year…

Two Daily designs…

Cellphone Scribbles these days!

I scribble on cellphone these days. These are what I did in a few days…

I remember the winter noons of my childhood,the floor of veranda,breaking up sunlight with prism,trying to touch the spectra on the floor…

I wonder how magnificent Saturn would look like from one of its moons. I try to imagine  it from Mimas…Whooo!:O

It is hard when there is nothing you can do about something except hope that it will end up just as you want it!

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I will…I wish…

i’m not a perfect person. there are many things i wish i didnt do
but i continue learning. i never meant to do those things to you.
and so i have to say before i go, that i just want you to know

i’ve found a reason for me, to change who i used to be
a reason to start over new, and the reason is you

i’m sorry that i hurt, its something i must live with everyday
and all the pain i put you through, i wish that i could take it all away
and be the one who catches all your tears, thats why i need you to hear

i’m not a perfect person, i never meant to do those things to you
and so i have to say before i go that i just want you to know

i’ve found a reason for me, to change who i used to be
a reason to start over new, and the reason is you
i’ve found a reason to show a side of me you didnt know
a reason for all that i do, and the reason is you – The Reason, Hoobastank

I will remember that I cried for her in the bathroom, with the shower open.

I will remember that I looked to the door everyday, until she entered the class room.

I will remember that I found her.

I will walk the streets with her memories.

I will remember that I wished her to walk by me, and listen to her stories.

I will remember to recollect every moment with her every morning.

I will cherish her memories like there is no tomorrow.

I wish to walk beside her sometimes.

I wish I was more perfect, smarter, sharper, intelligent, strong.

I wish I had a nicer face!

I wish I didn’t have ‘Super massive’ Love inside me.

I wish I could make a skydive.

I wish she didn’t turn her cellphone off.

I will remember we make choices to never look back.

I will remember that I AM IN LOVE!

 

Observations and stuff!

I saw a toddler today, playing with a toy bulldozer, on the street. The bulldozer was in pretty good shape. It was great, colorful and whatever a toy would should be good at. But this boy was not in a good shape, otherwise he wouldn’t be playing with that on the street. I wish we had camera in our eyes so that I could photograph some instants of my life without seeking the camera. Maybe that is every photographers dream.

Few days age a friend of mine told me what a perfectionist she was once upon a time, and how she somewhat lost it (I don’t believe that). I was amazed by her story! She is such a skilled person! Just as I Love her, I started to feel sometimes that I might not be an appropriate person for her, she deserves someone lot better and complete that me who can actually Love her. Sometimes that makes me so unhappy, I wish I could be that perfect in my principles and ways, and in what I do that I could near her. But flaws in my character are so deep that I am still trying to make myself more complete after 20 years of spending Life! She is so nice and yet so perfect in her ways; I never seen anyone like her. Whatever, I am so lucky that I met her!

I started to programme AVR microcontrollers. It was really very FUN! My friends really liked that I think. I enjoyed the compliments. But I wish they were more interest in doing some programming first hand. You can see my first project here.

“People like us don’t change, we either stay sharp or get sloppy” – Rusty, Ocean’s Eleven. I liked this quote very much. After very bad good awesome cool encounters with Life, I am what I am.

Cool AVRs!

These days it is I am spending my time with AVR microcontrollers. So no other thoughts are coming into my head these days. I am learning how to use it’s  features (e.g I/O, interrupts, ADC etc etc.). The twitter is the only thing I update these days!