Envy

I do envy a boy, who gets all the things he wants, from an Intel Core 2 Quad powered PC to a XBOX 360 and Nokia N91, all at the expense of his father. His father half reluctantly goes to the shop with him and buys him the things. Me? A new PC last year was enough.

I do envy a guy, who can write great blogs, with all the feelings pouring from the web page. He have acquired the skill to write beautifully. Me? Sometimes I try to imitate his style, after a few tries I press the power button on my keyboard, and get sad as I am unable to write good blogs.

I do envy a classmate, who has awesome handwriting. He impresses all the teachers with his handwriting. Me? I write and I write, but can’t get near his quality.

I do envy another boy, who is great at his studies. No subject is difficult for him. He studies and gets high grades. Me? I spend a lot of hours at my table, in front of my books, but can’t near his perfection.

I do envy a photographer who is great at attracting eyes with his photos. Me? Capturing photos always makes me jealous of him.

I do envy a friend who can paint well. Me? When I am painting, I tend to throw my brush in anger, I can’t paint like him.

There is a kid in my school, who is great at bicycling, when I am trying to imitate his style of hand less bicycling I get make an accident, Damn! that kid.

And…

Those who cannot get a square meal at the end of the day, those who cannot get the opportunity study in schools, those who doesn’t get nice clothes on festive seasons, those who cannot have a roof over their heads envy me, as I get a square meal everyday, I get nice clothes every festive, I have a study in school, I have a nice room and blankets to sleep in winter.

I am standing, I do envy and I get envied.

[root@localhost ~]#bicycle>>computer>>linux

Can you feel the time when the people could use a PC after knowing a few elements of computer science? Can you feel the time when they had to repair the OS itself when they were in a fault? I cannot know how did they feel when they had to face such a problem. But I can understand one thing, they could use their computers as you use your bicycle now. I mean almost total control. When you have a accident with your bicycle, and have it’s wheels displaced, what do you do? You pick up a wrench and a plier and fling yourself on the bicycle, then with a bit of tinkering with that long screw driver, you fix the wheel yourself. Easy and simple enough. You were able to do that because you know every aspect of the bicycles workings. Just like that, the older computer geeks circumnavigate the problems they faced.

Now, things have changed, the realm of Microsoft Windows have made it a lot simpler. You have to install a program to run it. You have to move a few sliders and select some special menu items & tabs to fix almost all of the problem. You don’t have to use a hell lot of command to attain full control over your PC. But do you have that much full control over all your PCs workings?

It is true that you will not be able to use the old OSes like UNIX to attain full control. But you may be able to use the whole PC effectively, if you use Linux or BSD. These open source OSes will allow you to attain full control over your PC. And using Linux is a rare pleasure. Linux is often misunderstood, it is thought that the installation of Linux is hefty. But the truth is, Linux installation and making a Dual Boot System is even easier than making a glass of milkshake. The pleasure is in the circumnavigation of the problems you face. If you are a tinkerer type like me, you will eventually learn, that you can’t live without problems. And the problems you face in Linux is the pleasure that you should enjoy. And the method of fixing problems in Linux is so much different, that you will feel like a computer user using a computer of the past, who is using commands to win over the faults.

Try it! And don’t be separate from this special form of wizardry.

The undeterred confessions of a broken heart…

Two of them were walking along the pavement. Both were in light mood. It was almost twilight, the street was almost, except a car a minute. They were talking vivaciously about thermodynamics. They both liked the way it was, empty streets are perfect for talking about such subjects. “Entropy is a parameter which increases when a system goes to a state of higher probability” The other replied, “I can’t get it, explain”.

“Well, when a system…”, he suddenly pauses.

“What’s the matter?”, he asked, looking at his companion. His companions eyes were fixed on the couple walking a bit far away from them. The girl seemed beautiful from behind. She wore a short sleeved salwar and a jeans. Her hands seemed to be crafted by an artist, her legs seemed to in perfect harmony with each other. She got a ponytail hair. It was swinging gracefully as she walked. The gently gust of wind was agitating her salwar. Her shoulders seemed to be in a perfect geometry, which were oscillating in a subtle frequency as she walked. Her curves were attractive, as if the Golden Ratio was implied upon them. The boy beside him was pretty much ordinary, wore a trouser and a shirt. Their hands was rubbing each other; they were walking side by side.

“Isn’t she beautiful?!”, one of them just spoke out of a trance.

“Who, the girl?”

“Who else!”

“Why she? I mean there are lot other beautiful in the town, why did she attracted you? Something fishy, eh?”, the other said in a ‘making fun’ tone.

“No, nothing is fishy”, he said calmly.

“Some thing’s wrong buddy, do you know her?”, seriously this time.

“I don’t only know her!”

“You mean…?”, they understood each other very clearly.

“Yup, from the first time I saw her. But I was waiting for a perfect day, when I could expose my love to her, when I could really convince her that I really love her. You know, I really love her.”

“I get it.”

“Have you ever fallen in love?”

“Nope”

“Then you cannot get it!”

“Why?”

“When you love someone with all your heart, and expect a bit of a passion from that person, and find out that she doesn’t even like you; it feels awfully bad.”

“Oh, you mean, you told her something.”

“No, she somehow anticipated me.”

“Ya, girls are a hell lot aware than we are.”

“and when she knew that I love her, she told one of her friend, that she doesn’t even want to talk with me, she said I am disturbing her.”

“Leave her, buddy, you have better things to do. What does she knows about you?”

“Nothing.”

“That is why she was able to ignore you like that.”

He gave a profound smile. His friend asked, “Why are you smiling?”

“I can’t leave her.”

“Why?”

“Because… if I leave her, if I stop loving her, I will fall from my ideal. I will love her endlessly, until I die.”

“Be logical! She will never love you, then what will you get from your love?!”

“Nothing”, he smiled again, “but I am sure one day she will realize that someone had truly loved her”

“Damn that ‘one day’”

The other smiled again, his eyes shone with some inner fire,”It’s my life! If fate wants a challenge, I will give one, I will stay undeterred, I will be unbreakable.”

What?

I am sitting in front of my computer but I can’t figure out what to do. It’s a strange position. I am just sitting, clicking randomly on the web pages, and playing an audio CD in Windows Media Player 11. Time is one of the most precious resource we can have. But when time is plenty, it may lead to very boring consequences. Well, that’s not my condition now. I don’t have plenty of time now. But I have to take a bit of rest from my study, and PC is one of the very few places to rest. I am resting in front of my PC. And I have already wasted so much time, just thinking what to do now. I can’t get into coding, because it will hamper my studies, I can’t get into gaming, because it may come to my mind while I am studying. I can’t get into some creative 3D modelling because that would difficult enough to gobble up half of my time. All these because I have to get into study again, and if I get into other things a bit, I may not be able to get up and continue my study. What should I do? What?

Photography

I use my digital camera to capture moments. The moments which pleases me. I still haven’t achieved such a perfection to captivate my sensation fully in two dimensions, and the progress is real slow.

Yesterday, I felt a leap in my progress,

This is one of the photo I took yesterday.

Another one…

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