System crashed!

Actually, my life has crashed, need a hard reboot. This life is hitting me hard. Let me list…

Physics: Lost, having to forcefully study stuff I don’t like. Almost hell.

Other sciences: After college, concentrating is real hard.

A Girl: Cannot even approach her…

Stories: After college, getting too much tired.

Peer in college: Takes twenty minutes to determine the vernier constant a angle measuring apparatus, not something I don’t hate.

Current study: Has no flavor, 100% dehydrated.

All summed up to -> %^&##^\*@!!…system crashed.

Next time, when I will reboot, I will think of the moment, when Erik Weinmeyer first climbed after he went blind, the moment when Alexie first though of flying again with his feet amputated.

If a blind man can climb everest, if a footless pilot fly a fighter plane, then I will return to science.

And the most fishy thing is that all this time I kept telling me this thing all the time. LOL

LEDs!!

I am pretty excited with the cute LEDs. I am going to work on them real soon! And the best part is learning these stuff is not that hard. I cannot wait to get my hands on the components, a veroboard, and a soldering iron with resins and flux. I will be building a simple switched LED circuit, with fade in and out effect.

LEDs

If I continue to study electronics engineering, things won’t be that bad after all I think. But still something is missing in engineering, and the elegance in engineering I want could also be done otherwise. It doesn’t need a full time course.

See the above picture, ain’t the LEDs cute?

From me to …

Dear Science,

I never really thought that engineering in these parts of the world would be so frustrating. I got into engineering because I could be close to you and make some profit out of life. But now I see I am only getting far from you.

During the first evening after college, I felt beautifully sad. I never felt like that before. It was some random fluctuation between dream, reality and the mixture or both. I realized that I am very near to losing you.

What’s the point of studying stuff without having fun? You can do anything for something with which you have fun, but when you are not having fun, how would it be, if that stuff is forced upon you? And when your peer is not up to you, how would that be? Awful! That’s my observation.

Sorry, I left you like that, but don’t worry, I won’t give up on you! My Gods are still there, chanting, trying to clear the wet sticky shadows of my mind. A wise man said to me that “You cannot just stop playing the game, keep playing!”, and that’s why I cannot just stop just now. If mass bends light, if energy creates mass, if a blind man climbs Everest, if a footless pilot flies a plane, if a patent clerk changes the world, then I will be returning to you one day. And on that day I will sing the song of the mountains, on that day I will spread my arms towards the wind, on that day I will have victory, on that day I will go to the wise man and say, “I have won the game”. I have made a lot of promise to myself like that, but none I kept, but this time I am making a promise to you. Mark my weakest words, they will grow stronger.

Bye!

Yours…

N-Dimensional grad

Is this how an n-dimensional grad would look like?

ActionScript 3.0 Rockz!

I was famailar with ActionScript 2.0. I knew tit bits of AS2 coding. What I didn’t know is that ActionScript 3.0 is something totally revamped. When I first got taste of the new ActionScript 3.0 (though not much new), I was amazed to see the language. It is no more a mere language that can be used to add interactivity in Flash movie. Adobe just pushed the limits! Now it can be used to develop Adode AIR, Flex application and Flash movies and apps. It has a bit JavaScripty tinge and DOM, which makes it sexier. Web designing no more HTML, JavaScript, PHP, MySQL etc etc. It has something more amazing, not only for the Coding buffs out there, but also the Desginers.

I found my role as a technology taster in the world of technology. I hope to the web change a lot with all these new great technologies coming up.

The Prestige

I really don’t want to talk about a movie which I really like, I hope people see it with there eyes and admire it. There are a lot of online resources that can reveal the plot, but I wouldn’t recommend it. I am a serious movie buff myself, and I cannot wait to see a movie, and if I am not able to go the theater, I read the movie plot on the internet. But this movie, which I didn’t know about, came in HBO few months ago. The climax of the movie truly satisfies the word ‘climax’. A must watch for non-conventional thrill seekers.

Feynman, tie and textbook

I was reading Feynman’s Lectures on Physics. I say, “If there is any undergraduate physics textbooks exists it is Feynman’s Lectures on Physics, others are mere references”. My beloved readers (if there is any reader as I get no more pageveiws than 16-17 avg.), you should read the books, your background doesn’t matter, least Algebra and Calculus required, but nothing more. You will be doing Physics in no time. If you ask me, “Why should we crack our nerves on something like Physics?”, because you will have to excercise your brain a little bit to learn Physics, I would promptly answer, “You will be missing somthing in your life! Guranteed!”. Reading popular science is great, but only to some certain extent. Beyond that, you must study the inner working of the science, and when you learn that, you will have better understanding on the thing that you are reading in some popular science article. I found thisout myself, I was reading a book, ‘Symmetry and the Monster’ by Mark Ronan. The book is just great, but it was not enough to understand group theory, upon which the latter chapters were dependent on. So, I downloaded these pages, http://members.tripod.com/~dogschool/ and studied group theory. In that way I was able to advance to the latter chapters of the book. I read a lot of popular articles about Quantum Mechanics, but I was never really did understand what is really was. After I learned the inner mathematical workings of QM, I became pretty much familliar in Quantum Mechanics.

Feynman made me a more serious student. I don’t know why, it may also have some different reasons, but I nonticed it. After reading a bits of Feynman, I am in love for other textbooks. I read more text books that I did before. This might seem to be  a strange phenomenon, but it happened.

Not only that, while I watching Naruto today, with Gaara fighting with Rock Lee(Outside: Joker, inside: Tiger), I was practiing how to tie a tie from the internet(http://www.neckties.com/content/howtotieatie.html), and finally managed to master the Winsdor knot. It is quite an achievment for me, withing half an hour, I really mastered the knot, while watching TV. I think Feynman was in this too…

Physics!?

I don’t really know what is meant by the word physics. Maybe, I shouldn’t want to make something out of it, pysicists and philosophers are there for such a job, and I am becoming such a boring engineer. But I still do think about this pretty question, “What is physics?”, as said a by Naruto, “A ninja never leaves the field!”

Sometimes I feel that mathematics is all that physics is, and the remainder is philosophy. In high school I never really appreciated complex differential equations and matrix, all the physics numericals could be solved by simple algebra and trigonometry. So, then physics was about philosophy and no maths. Just because the maths was doing for physics was so easy for me, I didn’t feel those maths abstract at all.

My first encounter with quantum mechanics made me to rethink the way I did physics. I knew that quantum mechanics was all about chances and probabilities, all the popular science articles say that. But when I really came to know the uncertainty principle, I realized the intellectual leap made by Heisenberg and co. That was simply philosophy. A question e.g., “Say if the moon is up, without looking at the sky?”. I don’t think this question exists in real world, if we consider moon as something that cannot be in a superposed state of visibility and non-visibility, and classically moon cannot be in a superposed state. All we can say that, “Moon can be up or not!”, but that is not a proper answer for a question as deterministic as this, so we take resort to probability. 50% chance of moon being up, and 50% up of moon not being up. And viola! We are one step closer to quantum mechanics. And when we really say that moon has 50% chance of being up and 50% chance for not, we also say that moon is now in a superposed state. And when we look at the sky and check if the moon is there, we force moon to collapse to one certain state (being up or not) from the superposed state.

This was pretty much simple. But when we do calculate the differential eq. of quantum mechanics and infer some phenomenon like tunneling, molecular orbitals etc etc, and see them experimentally things really get abstract, because at that stage mathematics and philosophy of physics is so intermingled, that is hard see them separately. At the core philosophy, classical mechanics and quantum mechanics are same, but to us they are apart far, as a wise man said to me once, “Newton is in your blood, quantum mechanics would have a hard time getting inside you.”

And that is why I am trying to see classical mechanics in a way, so that I can see philosophy and mathematics intermingled, that should help me to have a deeper understanding of quantum mechanics. And now after a small course on quantum mechanics, and having deeper understanding of such a mixture of mathematics and philosophy, which we call physics, I do appreciate differential equations and matrix.

And suddenly, while writing the last line, it came to me that philosophy’s ‘phi’ or ‘phy’,  and mathematics’s ‘ics’ may have made physics. That’s fishy, isn’t it?